Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Water Leg Fundraiser

We've recently opened the pool for the summer, though I have yet to get it.  One of the things holding me back is that I can't wear my prosthesis in the pool because the pump could become damaged.  My prosthetist told me they can make me a leg I can wear in the pool or even in the ocean, but it will cost me $1500.

We can't use insurance to pay for this because they would consider it my leg and wouldn't pay for my main prosthesis this summer.  I've started a GoFundMe campaign to try and raise at least some of the money.

Click here if you would like to help by donating or would like to check the progress of the campaign.

Friday, April 11, 2014

A New Leg and a Beard Trim

Two days ago we went to Nashville for an appointment with my prosthetist.  I received my first leg, a training leg, and walked on it for the first time.  There's still a long way to go due to a lot of muscle weakness and a minimal range of motion in my knee, but this is a big step in the right direction.  Here's the video I took yesterday:

I finally realized the root cause of my apprehension leading into this appointment.  When I saw the leg for the first time it hit me: It feels real now.  Up until this point it has still felt like I would wake up and all of this would have been just a terrible dream.  Now it's very real to me.

Yesterday I wore my leg and went for a walk outside.  It wasn't very far, maybe 100 feet each way, but it felt good and didn't leave me as tired as it has before I got the prosthesis.  Walking is much easier now, though my pace has become rather snail-like.


Other news is that my goal has been met.  I did not trim my beard until I received and walked on a new leg.


Now the beard is trimmed, and I feel ready heading into new adventures with a new leg.  My first new adventure was walking up the stairs, and I successfully completed it last night!

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Thoughts and Such

We're currently on our way to Nashville for an appointment that has been a long time coming.  Today is the day I finally get my new leg.

It's quite the emotional day for me, and this week has been a roller coaster of emotions.  I've been waiting so long for this day that I'm worried about disappointing myself.

I've had thoughts and dreams about this day. I've pictured putting the leg on and walking immediately, not having any learning curve with my new leg.

I've also been feeling broken. Everything is so difficult.  Just rolling over in bed takes an effort it never has before.  Before my accident I had achieved a point where I felt confident, I felt like I could do anything. Honestly, I felt invincible.

At the same time though, I had no idea what direction life was leading me in.  I was set to graduate next month, and I had no idea what was going to come next. All I had was a hope that it would work out. 

A wrench was definitely thrown in my plans. I had a plan for at least the next few months, but God had a different plan for me.

My pastor and I have been doing a study on suffering.  I still don't know why this happened to me, and I probably never will.  The comforting fact in all of this though is that there is a why, there is a reason for all that has happened.  It's still hard, it's still difficult to deal with and quite overwhelming at times. That will still take a lot of work, but maybe today will be a step in the right direction.  Maybe today I'll start to feel whole again, maybe I won't feel quite so broken.

I still hold no anger towards anyone. There's no reason for that. I made peace on that front easily early on.  I'm battling inner demons now.  I feel like today will be a turning point in the battle.